today went for X'mas celebration at Sundac CCK...actually dint wanna go..coz was so no mood for it bahx..somemor in e mornin got tinks to do ma..so dun feel like goin lo..but Xin Yan called in e mornin ask mi go..followed by Xue Ping's voice..i kinda freaked out =.=".. dunno y oso..haha...so jux go lo..i was so late by then...i reached only at 10.45am while others were already ther at 9am or earlier bahx..im soo feelin guilty for that..so sorry...
ya..went there then saw Amalina and Rai and all..so surprise Amalina was there coz she isn't a tf ma...wrg conception =.="...ok...dunno y i so hapi to see them =.="..maybe too long nv see le bahx...i miss playin bmt wif Amalina and e others..haix..i wonder when will hv e time for that le T.T....k..then went over to Xue Ping and Xin Yan there to sit sit lo...sit ther nv really do anitink la...felt so useless over ther..i cant hlp anitink..only can go there and contribute to the noise lo (by clapping)....lol....ya...after a small prize presentation..evritink was over...it was only 11+am bahx...so fast finss le...den went around to serve drinks awhile den went to share a plate of food wif Xin Yan lo...stood outside n eat...i tink im gettin fatter and fatter le la!...haven been exercisin n yet im all e way eatin eatin n eatin..wat e hell im i doin???..argh!....k..after that drank some water..Xin Yan n mi stood outside e gate like prisoners..Gary ther all were they jokin wif Xin Yan....i stood by e side..bein lefted out(thats wat i felt)...BUT..it was mostly my problem la..i dun tok much..u all noe..so oni can blame myself lo...lalala....haix....
ya...den after dat finally can hlp to keep e chairs and move e tables...finally hv sometink to do lo..if not i will feel veri e wat for not hlpin out...ya...den sat down n listen to them chat....hmm...oh...i was gana caught by Xin Yan and Xue Peng of my "black face"...Xue Peng asked mi y...dunno how to anw her..coz it was not because e uncle kept askin us to move e tables here and there...it was other reasons dat cant be said...ya...den anihow reply her dat im "sianx" lo dats y "black face" =.="....my mood wasn't veri gd as i said...ya...sorry for e "face"....den we all received a bag of goodie wif comprises of a bear bear, chocolate bar and oso a handmade bookmark by Sundac...so nice of them...yupx...e bear bear mux hv costed them a bomb..seem to be veri ex type sia..they shouldn't hv bought dat for us...they could hv saved e money and used it in Sundac....yupx...quite a waste lo....aniwayx...they were veri nice....we had a "talk" by Xue Ping before goin off...it was a changed in out grp presentation tinky for Afterglow frm each grp...yupx..den they went to collect their bags...hahax...Kok Wei's goodie bag was gana stolen by Gary coz his bag veri nice...haha..den they took it and hid it while he was away...=.="...he went around findin it lo...den it was Xue Ping who told him la...if not he will be runnin around searchin for it bahx...haha....walked out wif them b4 i went home myself...coz my hse is veri near Sundac den e other were goin to hang out.....
reached home...ate my lunch...actually want to ask my dad if i can go hang out wif them anot...but i did not...coz...i tink i beta stay at home bahx...im e oni 1 who can pei him ma...my sisters are not stayin wif us...my bro is always wif his gf..my mum..u noe....so im e only 1 now who is "free" to pei and take care of him bahx...maybe i can be ther when he nid some1 to nag or talk to lo...thats y im not goin out veri often...it is not dat i dun wan to spent time wif my frenx...i love to go out wif frenx.........but theres sometimes dat i dun like because i dun hv much freedom when im out either as my dad will ask mi to leave my frenx fone to him or call mi...i realli hated dat...i oso nid some freedom of my own..to do my own stuff..im already 16...and in e past...when my sisters are at this age..they were doin much more tinks dat i can do now....i realli tink dat my dad is too over-protective of mi le....or maybE....he still dun trust dat i wont be like my sisters...wont be so guai...maybe will oneday turn bad n run away frm home like my sisters.......i promised myself dat i wont.....for him....i dun wan to argue wif him animore...i try my best to be a gd daughter..if u tink im still not...den...speechless...........
maybe...im tinkin too much myself too....sometimes....not puttin myself into his shoes and shouted at him...im sorry for dat.....i hv no choice but to do this to make you understand mi better.........
afternoon was juz slackin...slept till evenin....watched "1 Litre of Tears" then went to sleep.......
ya..went there then saw Amalina and Rai and all..so surprise Amalina was there coz she isn't a tf ma...wrg conception =.="...ok...dunno y i so hapi to see them =.="..maybe too long nv see le bahx...i miss playin bmt wif Amalina and e others..haix..i wonder when will hv e time for that le T.T....k..then went over to Xue Ping and Xin Yan there to sit sit lo...sit ther nv really do anitink la...felt so useless over ther..i cant hlp anitink..only can go there and contribute to the noise lo (by clapping)....lol....ya...after a small prize presentation..evritink was over...it was only 11+am bahx...so fast finss le...den went around to serve drinks awhile den went to share a plate of food wif Xin Yan lo...stood outside n eat...i tink im gettin fatter and fatter le la!...haven been exercisin n yet im all e way eatin eatin n eatin..wat e hell im i doin???..argh!....k..after that drank some water..Xin Yan n mi stood outside e gate like prisoners..Gary ther all were they jokin wif Xin Yan....i stood by e side..bein lefted out(thats wat i felt)...BUT..it was mostly my problem la..i dun tok much..u all noe..so oni can blame myself lo...lalala....haix....
ya...den after dat finally can hlp to keep e chairs and move e tables...finally hv sometink to do lo..if not i will feel veri e wat for not hlpin out...ya...den sat down n listen to them chat....hmm...oh...i was gana caught by Xin Yan and Xue Peng of my "black face"...Xue Peng asked mi y...dunno how to anw her..coz it was not because e uncle kept askin us to move e tables here and there...it was other reasons dat cant be said...ya...den anihow reply her dat im "sianx" lo dats y "black face" =.="....my mood wasn't veri gd as i said...ya...sorry for e "face"....den we all received a bag of goodie wif comprises of a bear bear, chocolate bar and oso a handmade bookmark by Sundac...so nice of them...yupx...e bear bear mux hv costed them a bomb..seem to be veri ex type sia..they shouldn't hv bought dat for us...they could hv saved e money and used it in Sundac....yupx...quite a waste lo....aniwayx...they were veri nice....we had a "talk" by Xue Ping before goin off...it was a changed in out grp presentation tinky for Afterglow frm each grp...yupx..den they went to collect their bags...hahax...Kok Wei's goodie bag was gana stolen by Gary coz his bag veri nice...haha..den they took it and hid it while he was away...=.="...he went around findin it lo...den it was Xue Ping who told him la...if not he will be runnin around searchin for it bahx...haha....walked out wif them b4 i went home myself...coz my hse is veri near Sundac den e other were goin to hang out.....
reached home...ate my lunch...actually want to ask my dad if i can go hang out wif them anot...but i did not...coz...i tink i beta stay at home bahx...im e oni 1 who can pei him ma...my sisters are not stayin wif us...my bro is always wif his gf..my mum..u noe....so im e only 1 now who is "free" to pei and take care of him bahx...maybe i can be ther when he nid some1 to nag or talk to lo...thats y im not goin out veri often...it is not dat i dun wan to spent time wif my frenx...i love to go out wif frenx.........but theres sometimes dat i dun like because i dun hv much freedom when im out either as my dad will ask mi to leave my frenx fone to him or call mi...i realli hated dat...i oso nid some freedom of my own..to do my own stuff..im already 16...and in e past...when my sisters are at this age..they were doin much more tinks dat i can do now....i realli tink dat my dad is too over-protective of mi le....or maybE....he still dun trust dat i wont be like my sisters...wont be so guai...maybe will oneday turn bad n run away frm home like my sisters.......i promised myself dat i wont.....for him....i dun wan to argue wif him animore...i try my best to be a gd daughter..if u tink im still not...den...speechless...........
maybe...im tinkin too much myself too....sometimes....not puttin myself into his shoes and shouted at him...im sorry for dat.....i hv no choice but to do this to make you understand mi better.........
afternoon was juz slackin...slept till evenin....watched "1 Litre of Tears" then went to sleep.......
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