1st day after 'O' level. I should be happy but somehow im NOT! Haiz, must be the A.math paper that made me so upset bahx, I couldn't sleep the whole night. Today woke up with a heavy head, my brain is like cramped up, im suffocating soon i think. Sorry for those ppl who msged me and I din't or late reply, im just couldn't bother with other things except for the exam. Its totally disappointing.Argh.
I know that its over but I just can't put it behind. After doing some soul searching for what I have done for my studies, i think that im just have to blame myself ALOT ALOT. I din't study hard enough and I had wasted so much time in that "meaningless" relationship. Yupx, I should have from the start stood strongly against it! Otherthan that, it should be because of family pressure bahx. Although my dad say he dunwan to give me any pressure in my studies, he actually DID but indirectly. Most of the time at home, he always think that he is right and don't give a damn to what i say. He can vent his frustation out at me but WTH lo, im also human lehx, not because im your daughter then you can like that treat me lo, i have my own problems, Not you only lo. Haix, everytime I have to "swallow" back all my anger on top of all the stress I already have. Im feeling terrible...
Sorry, I need somewhere to write my "pains" on, i really need to let it out but I don't think im feeling any better after this...haix..
I know that its over but I just can't put it behind. After doing some soul searching for what I have done for my studies, i think that im just have to blame myself ALOT ALOT. I din't study hard enough and I had wasted so much time in that "meaningless" relationship. Yupx, I should have from the start stood strongly against it! Otherthan that, it should be because of family pressure bahx. Although my dad say he dunwan to give me any pressure in my studies, he actually DID but indirectly. Most of the time at home, he always think that he is right and don't give a damn to what i say. He can vent his frustation out at me but WTH lo, im also human lehx, not because im your daughter then you can like that treat me lo, i have my own problems, Not you only lo. Haix, everytime I have to "swallow" back all my anger on top of all the stress I already have. Im feeling terrible...
Sorry, I need somewhere to write my "pains" on, i really need to let it out but I don't think im feeling any better after this...haix..
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